MOVE ON

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Yeah! That's true I haven't moved on yet. I didn't gave any time to heal myself from the trauma that caused because of us and our memories. It's been tough to move on from the past few months. Think some memories are meant to be burnt. This has been tough to me, laughing on the outside and crying inside. What do I say about the hands of mine shaking while texting and you're the reason. 

I can't move on. People said that I will be happy some day and your thoughts won't disturb me again. Yeah! It's not your thoughts that's disturbing me it's our memories that's killing me. I thought I'd move on easily. Wish I could leave the way you left me. You just filled me with love and left man and I got no fucking reason to hate you. How can I even unlove you? 


You left me with a huge question mark and I can't answer people when they ask me "How's your girl man?" I just say we're fine. I just say we're fine. What else can I say ? I can't express the shit going on. 

May be I'll move on from our memories one day. One day all those words doesn't matter to me like they used to do. One day I'd take it easy, Like it's nothing. Like it means nothing. One day you'll understand why it's been so hard for me to move on. Like you can never know that there's an unknown void until someone fills it up. Yeah! For sure some one will lit me up in the darkness and that wouldn't be you anymore. And then, it doesn't really matter to me anymore. I won't be hiding my feelings. I won't watch stand up comedy shows in the night to make me feel okay. I'll be free, free from everything that's hurting me. I'll MOVE ON.

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